Mad ! Angry !!!

This was actually a true story and it was my experience. My worst experience ever in my life. You should take it as a lesson although you never went through it.
I have a friend who was quite good with me. I thought she was the best friend and whom I can talk to when I'm depressed. But all I thought was wrong. ALL WRONG !!! I was totally mad!!! I can't describe by words.
At the past October. These things happened ONE MONTH ago !!! She wanted to go ***** (somewhere), and she did not have enough *****(a stuff). She messaged me and asked me to lend her. Well, actually I'm a straightforward person. I was a kind person. I eventually lend her my *****(my stuff) without thinking. An AB blood type person is like that :) Okay, it sounds nothing and is normal right.. Let's continue...--
A week later, she came back from *****(somewhere), and the next day was her end-year examination. I was not supposed to call her and annoy her. Okay. I keep quiet and try to be patient as well. I was a person which cares very very very much about my stuff. At first I thought she would return my stuff herself without my urge. But it's November already. Where was my shirt???? How come she did not return to me??? What happened??? Two days before holiday, a long holiday, which is today, I phoned her and she never open her phone, I tried to message her. She never reply. I was mad already. I tried the other way else. I messaged her sister to tell her to return me my stuff tomorrow. I even bluff her that I want to wear it tomorrow. I was guilty. Seriously. I did that the first time. Then her sister phoned me. You know what she says??? She said she(her sister, who make me a lot of trouble.) borrowed my stuff to the **** *** school's student. I was totally speechless that time. SPEECHLESS. I was blurred. In the second, I felt that I'm in the hell. I'm not kidding. These were totally the thoughts in my heart !!! And I did not know what will happen to my stuff. I did not know how to get back. I turned to become a stone. I wanted to cry, but the problem was I can't cry. I wanted to shout and scold her, but I couldn't do that. I don't know. I was totally blank. How can she do like that, that stuff is my stuff, it is another person stuff not your stuff !!! I feel like something wrong with her morality. I was mad and everything came out from my mouth. @#$%^*
I don't know. I have to spoil my image that I built it very hardly. I became a troublesome person indeed. But who cares?? I just want my stuff back. I don't know how you suppose to take back, but for sure I want my stuff BACK!!! I'm not that rich. All I want is to maintain my stuffs an make sure they do not lost. I can't afford to buy everything new.
Seriously, I was scared. I don't know how will she get back my shirt. I hope she will return to me next year. I will always tell her to get my shirt. Every second from now. A person will do something they do not want to do at first after someone annoyed her/him.
Now I lost my appetite. I lost my mood to play with my cat. I lost my mood to watch the final episode of the drama. I turned to a devil right now. All I need is to talk out everything in my heart in my blog. Together with my favourite boy band - U-KISS songs, 0330, Man Man Ha Ni, Neverland, and others. I feel better now.  :)
* Angry face = =